The rollercoaster - here it is, at super speed. Today started very well, I am having very good time here. In the evening I went to see some other good friends, it wasn't the party I had yesterday but still very good. Then I strolled a bit downtown, it was nice, until..... bam! without realizing it I am in front of the hotel where we spent our wedding night, magnificent and romantic. Memories start flooding my brain, I want to call W and tell her where I am. I feel romantic, I want to go inside a buy something with the hotel name engraved. I have the cell phone in my hand ready to digit my W number. I start talking to myself... I know I will be disappointed if I call, I am not going to have what I hope for and I would start to feel desperate again. I keep walking.... ouch.... THE PUB!! The pub where we went on our first date.... OUR pub, after several years the pub is still there, still the same. This is very painful. I think of taking a picture of me in front of the pub with the cell and send it to her.... I so would like to share this moments with her.... but I know I can't. I put again my cell phone back. We lived in this town for few years, we got married here, so many memories that suddenly hit me. I still enjoy the place and the people, I am happy I am here but it is painful. Damn roller coaster, damn divorce, damn everything. I am back in the house, here is neutral territory....
