Late in the Game-thread 6, maybe last in separated

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So, in the vein of "pressure" (so anti-db, I know) when I asked H yesterday if he could watch the kids while I attended a meeting from 7-8 tonight, I asked if he wanted to watch a movie afterwards. He answered maybe. So this afternoon I called him to see if he was going to because if he was, I'd pick up a movie and if not, would he stay late so I could work out afterwards? He said that he didn't want to watch a movie, but that he'd stick around for a while.

After my meeting ended, I was thinking, "What the heck? What are we going to talk about? This is kind of weird, this planning on hanging out thing!" and I wondered what to do, what we would do. To give it a little something to start with, and something that I would have done while dating, I stopped and picked up some ice cream for us. We chatted for 45 minutes or so. Yes, I did most of the talking, but that is normal. It was a little stilted, but nothing extremely odd, especially considering this was the first time in months that he's stayed just to hang out with me. I wanted to be the one who ended it, so at one point I just said thanks for hanging out with me. He got the hint and left. I thanked him for staying and said, "See, that wasn't that painful. I don't bite." We both smiled.

Only one uncomfortable semi-R thang and that was when we started talking about summer plans. I asked if he had seen the holiday custody schedule form thingie and he said that he had. I asked him how he could do that, fill in the next two year's worth of holidays, plan their time like that. That I was dying here. Then said, "Not that you've chosen that yet exactly." and he responded, "I just do what I have to do. Take one day at a time." I let it go, but wanted to say, "Dude, that hasn't exactly worked you know!!"

All in all, good. Nothing earth shattering, but he's making moves and I need that from him. I still think he's not coming back, but any kind of trying will make me feel better in the big picture. I hope it continues.