Mishka's- new thread/new tude - H who?

[mishka422]

Kelly,

Thank you for the suggestions. I hadn't thought of parents without partners. I hadn't even heard of it in years. Of course, I feel like a fraud just about everywhere right now that involves "single" people. I'm not single, don't plan on being single (at least in a legal sense), and can't go masquerading as a single person. It's so strange. It's like I'm living a half life.

There is a running club here in town but they are WAY serious!!! I don't run at all, barely walk quickly, and they are all marathoners. There are a few book clubs but I don't like someone else to tell me what to read so I've had a hard time with those. I used to belong to one but it was just too tough for me. I did talk to some friends about arranging a monthly game night. I really think it would be a hoot.

On another note, H and I have been having late night text conversations while he's at work. Nothing too flirty, just chatting, until tonight that is.

I'll admit it, I sent him a text first, just asking him if it was busy tonight. He told me he had taken the night off because he had a bad headache (totally NOT like him). The conversation ensued from there but it turned a little flirty and then the subject of dreams came up. I told him I dream of him quite often and he said they were probably all bad ones. I told him some were bad but most were VERY VERY good. He said he was flattered and I told him not to get a big head about it. It was all pretty humiliating.

It's a pretty humiliating thing to dream about someone nearly every night and have them in your every waking thought all day, every day, even though you know they don't want you anymore and probably never will. It's completely moronic! I've got to find a better way to thought block. The darned stop sign is just not working. My brain runs right through it. I should have thousands of tickets wracked up for all the times I've pretty much mowed the darned sign down.