Searching for the truth..for me 5

[phbear316]

John

Thank you, and you are right, in their small world they think they are doing nothing wrong. I wonder what she thinks about me I wonder if he tells her its me who is not budging and refusing to give him a divorce. Little does she know, he is not moving on it. I am ready to let go. Does h regret anything he has said to me. Absolutely not. He said what he said for he feels is the truth in his mind as to why he left our marriage. Yes the information was valuable but also very painful. He used to say those things to me once. But that was a very long time ago.

Its funny how you can accuse someone of something they physically could not do, without looking in the mirror at yourself and realize just one ounce, you may be at fault also. I know this may sound silly, but i watched my favorite movie the other night the king and I, and it made me feel like as the story line goes, a woman can stand behind a man and truly love him. For behind every strong man is a stronger woman. I know I was that strong woman. H just refuses to see it, or better yet admit it.

You are being helpful very. I just don't see him having that change of heart. Too many things have been said, accusations made, I am unsure at this time if i can have a change of heart. But will never rule it out. I was very into my ipod this weekend and had listened to the fleetwood mac song silver springs and the one line i 100% is so true for me. "I know I could have loved you but you would not let me. I will follow you down to the sound of my voice will haunt you." " You'll never get away from the sound of the woman that loves you" Some day my voice will haunt H's soul.

Maybe these two cheaters do deserve each other, for I have been thinking they both have cheated on their spouses with someone else. How true do you trust they can be to each other? Hummmm.

Thanks for letting me vent,
bear