The problem with me speaking to him on the phone is that the sound of his voice (I've always loved his voice) makes me miss him soooo much. And then I feel hurt because he isn't often being very kind. It's like I start off my day in a good mood with a PMA and then he calls or I call him for something and he's a huge "buzz kill". He'll go on and on about negative stuff. His lack of compassion for me in general is really hard on me. Even before he moved out, he was acting "un" empathetic and "un" compassionate (I can't think of what the opposites of those words are). I've been feeling uncharacteristically weak and fragile lately so I am very guarded. My kids depend on me being in charge so I have to avoid anything that gets me to close to the edge.
Finances are the WORST for us. We are most definitely not on the same sheet of music. I will try some of those ideas, Michelle. They sound good.
