Well, D and I had a GREAT time in Tahoe w/ my father and step-mother and her uncles and cousins. We rode bikes, played down by the lake, lots of games and lots of good quality time together.

When we called W on Friday night, she asked to speak w/ me and she was crying. She said she didn't know if she could let me have D for Tuesday and Wednesday after we got back b/c she had never been away from D that long in her life. I told her I understood exactly how she felt b/c it kills me too to be apart from D. I'm hoping that sunk in a bit. She also cried and told me to tell my dad and step-mom that she loves them very much (which I passed on).

It seemed as if she didn't like being left out and the fact that D and I were off w/out her had sunk in and she didn't like it. Anyway, later that night, she sent a text telling me to have fun, that she loved D and asked not to badmouth her in front of D - which I don't care to do anyway.

Saturday D left her a message, but they didn't speak. However, on Sunday, W sent me several texts about how the lice treatment went. It was interesting b/c her conversation w/ me started by her mentioning she couldn't find the E-S sections of her children's literature books. It wasn't something we needed to discover right then, but it helped her to start up a conversation w/me, I guess.

Sunday W sent me a text about the new lice treatment and we exchanged texts on that, then I had D call and leave her a message before our plane left Reno at 6:45. W sent a text while we were in the air telling D she loved her, so I had D call her briefly when we touched down at 8:25 to tell her goodnight.

This morning, W met us at D's doctor appointment and after the appointment, D asked if she could play w/ mommy on the grass, so I said yes. Pretty soon all three of us were playing and picking up pine cones. At one point, W asked D if she and I were going out to breakfast, and I invited W to come along. She seemed a bit shocked at the invite, but accepted, so we headed to one of her favorite breakfast places. It was nice to go in as the three of us like the old days, but that didn't last long.

Right after ordering, W asked D if she wanted to stay w/ me another night or if she was "ready to come home." D said she wanted to stay, so I told W that I'd get a babysitter so we didn't put her back into the daycare where she picked up the lice.

W looked at me and asked why, and I said I'd be at the deposition as well. Her face went blank and she was really, really unprepared for the thought of me being there tomorrow. She asked "what is this for?" and I said "it is to clear up some questionable information." I left it at that, but W was visibly upset.

She got up and cancelled her order and then told D she had to leave b/c she had an appointment she had forgotten about. I told her I was sorry and I had assumed her L would have let her know I would be there tomorrow. She didn't acknowledge me and promptly took off.

After she got out of her L's office, she sent me a text to tell D they'll go out for a special dinner tomorrow. I replied and also told her I may have to take her across the valley to the daycare next to W's apartment b/c I was having trouble securing a sitter. W replied how that would be great and make things easier for her.

I told her that was a bonus for her and asked about June and July custody. W's response was: "well, I have a deposition tomorrow...I will talk to you after that."

I knew it was coming and that she'd be pissed off, but it was a bummer that we were doing so well this morning. Anyway, either this morning was an abberation or a glimpse of what we may be able to do in the future.

I've got some homework to do for tomorrow and I'll have to get D out of here early to get her across town and get back in a timely manner. Oh, well. Tomorrow won't be easy on W and I'm not looking forward to it either. It will be difficult on me as well.

However, there is that part of me that is curious to see what she does and how she reacts, as well as how my L chooses to play things.

I'll definitely be posting tomorrow night as I'll update you on what takes place. I just wish I wasn't here, but I am, so I have to do what I have to do for myself and my D.

RTL


M:38; D: 6
Divorce Final: 10/6/08