I am sure that he did love you and probably still does. He's just totally self-centered right now and unable to be loving. . . .

Don't apologize for negative reactions - they are NORMAL! And, probably healthy in helping you to let go and detach. They are only a problem if they turn into bitterness. You will process what is happening and grow stronger and wiser from it.

me: 47
H: 48
he has 2 grown sons
M 1995(my 1st, his 3rd)
hit iceberg 6/07
S 9/26/07
before
now