Hey lwb, waiting for the rain to clear, behind the storm it's clear skys and we will be off to the pool, hope thats sign of how my life will be, storming right now.
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lwb: Detachment is sort of an armor for our heart, huh? Church filled me with peace and confidence this morning, something I try to keep with me at all times.
I hate that my heart is getting so hard, will I be able to trust again, will I be able to forgive I don't know, Chruch was great, me and my 4 kids. Church gives me peace, I prayed for everyone on this site and my W, I feel sorry for her, have to go talk later
We all have a long haul ahead of us good or bad it's the path we choose thats important.
M45 W41 M10 years D9, D6, D6, S5 OM confirmed 12/07 merry christmas to me PA confirmed 03/08 no sex yet ?? let me hope !!! W moving out June 1st - 10 days - already signed lease
Just popping in on a 'can't get back to sleep night' to say hi...listening to a soothing rainstorm here in OK right now...it's probably on it's way up to you!
And GYpsy...you have such a way with words...that's a great post!
L, that 'soothing rain' (we got 2 inches in 4 hours) clogged my gutters and washed away my entire veggie/fruit garden. I cried this morning when I saw it. I spent the morning outside putting it back together with a neighbor helping me. H saw it when he got here, and went on the roof without me saying a word and cleared the gutters.
Oh get this...H bought a motorcycle. Yup. MLC man coming down the road!! He called and wants to come show it to me. Um, ok? I promise to be supportive like a friend, and not giggle when he rides up. Ok, I'll try. This is H's 3rd bike in his life, so I am thankful he is experienced, but still pray he drives safely.
Had a DELIGHTFUL 4 days off. Back to work tomorrow. Blecky. Even braved the icy waters of the pool today. Only for my girls would I get in water that cold, water they didn't even notice should have had ice cubes in it.
Hi there! Glad to see that your wonderful neighbor helped with the garden. How nice. And that your H took the initative to get his arse up and clear the gutters.
The motorcycle!? Funny! My H had talked about that at one time too. Why on earth would your H buy one now in the midst of all the crap he has going on. Just tells you once again how lost and out of sorts he is.
Gypsy - I love reading what your write. I clung to my H as strong as I could, giving up my own life for him. I lost myself along the way. I'm finding Sue again, slowly but surely. It will be too late, but my H will probably be amazed when she finally comes completely out. I think part of him will wonder why he left.
JeffSTL- I saw your comment that you hate that your heart is getting so hard. I feel the same way. I soften from time to time, but I find myself cold and distant with my H. I find that it's the only way I can detach. My H has a way of trying to keep me within his grasp by spending time with D4 and I and by still trying for intimacy. He's still leaving and going to live with OW, but he can't let go of that control. I pray that you and I can both find that trust again some day. I'm scared of what this will do to future relationships I have.
Well, everyone have a great day. Back to work here too lwb.
Hugs to you and the girls. As always, I'm thinking of you!
SueS
ME: 42, H: 42, D6 Together: 18 yrs. Married: 15 yrs. Attended Retrouvaille - December 2009 Status: Working on it day by day
So, did he have a bandana tied around his head too? What a bad arse! I don't think I could have held back the giggles.
Let's think up a good name for a motorcycle gang he could belong to. Hmmmm.... Mindless Freaks? I don't know, someone else give it a try. I bet someone can come up with a good one.
Just remember LWB, he is still married to you so half of that motorcyle is yours! Aren't you excited? LOL
Life's challenges are not supposed to paralyze you, they're supposed to help you discover who you are. -- Bernice Johnson Reagon
[/quote]I think LWB has been doing this for quite awhile. It doesn't work for everyone...it didn't work for me either. LWB's H doesn't want to follow through with the D but he doesn't want to fix the marriage....my H was the same way. I think there comes a point when you have to say enough is enough....I did my best...and that's all I can do. My guess is that he will continue to live like this as long as LWB will let him. I think it has been mentioned before that filing could be a last-last resort. That might shock her H back into reality.[quote]
Hope
I guess I didn't word that well. I am thinking more of trying to do something different if possibal but, you are definitly right, what works for one won't neccissarily work for another. I feel, like you that most will live like they are as long as we let them.
LWB,
Im'e glad at least that your H has had a motorcycle before and know how to ride one. Personally I wish my H would buy another one but alas, in his MLC he won't spend a dime on anything. (not the typical MLCer). I love bikes!
Yoyo,
The Wacked Out WA's. Im'e sure there ar a lot that would fit into this catagory.
JAK
You don't get to choose how you're going to die. Or when, you can only decide how you're going to live now. ~Joan Baez
that 'soothing rain' (we got 2 inches in 4 hours) clogged my gutters and washed away my entire veggie/fruit garden.
Then I sure hope you didn't wind up with what we had last night!!! Between 3-5 inches in just a couple of hours!! We had small leaks in spots we've only had a time or two in 20 years in this house!! And more to come tonight...
So, H has now become 'easy rider'...?!?
What, if anything, have you decided about May 31st?
He called and wants to come show it to me. Um, ok? I promise to be supportive like a friend, and not giggle when he rides up. Ok, I'll try. This is H's 3rd bike in his life, so I am thankful he is experienced, but still pray he drives safely.