One love/One life/When it's one need/In the night

[MichelleLT]

Kalni,

I have never brought it up. He was the one who, after the A started, came to me about getting separate places and then said he wanted a D. He was bugging me for a few months about doing a summary dissolution type of D - very fast, no court, no Ls. When I refused, the conversations would turn into huge fights.

He hasn't brought up D in about 4-6 months now I guess. And the last couple R talks we've had, initiated by him of course, he has said he's not sure he wants a D or that he doesn't want a D, he wants to give us a chance - this was where he said he wanted to date. He has said how sweet I am, how I'm such a wonderful person, but he just isn't sure we're right for each other (this is a nice improvement from me being a "horrible controlling b!t@h who has made him miserable" and how our sex life was so boring it drove him into another woman's arms lol)

Of course, now we aren't dating anymore, but I don't know what that means for him wanting / not wanting a D.

I take it your H has still not said anythign about it? HHHMMMMM Very interesting! Wonder if she has even said anything to him?

I would be very surprised if she didn't. But because of the time difference, she was probably already long asleep by the time he got back from his camping trip. She may not have talked to him until today. It'll be interesting to see what happens...

In the meanwhile, I am keeping on with school and work. But I feel like I'm not sure what to do about me, about working on myself, about the R. I mean, I need to work out more, and with school & work right now that's practically impossible - so maybe I'll feel better when I can get back into a better routine with that. But other than that, I'm just feeling stuck. I want to do something, but I'm not sure what exactly lol.