What the heck am I doing?

[Doingmypart]

The bigger issue was my dishonesty. Not so much that I spoke to a female. I have left out info, I have not told the truth on occasion and always get caught doing so. I only seem to do it when I feel trapped. I hate that I do that. I don't think that is really who I am. I agree w/Karen43 she does not want me to have a life right now. She kept throwing in my face "I thought you were supposed to be working on you right now" which I am. I do need to have a sit down with her and not sure when that will happen. At the moment she wants nothing to do with me and thinks I am full of it. Hopefully when the dust settles and we can talk I can tell her where I am and what I want. She really thinks I want out of this R & to be away from her. My guess is she is saying those things to make it easiser for herself. I don't have anything to lose at this point. And I am not truly happy. I am happier with myself but not with my life with W. Thanks both of you!