ROOT, the problem is that we WERE intimate during most of this drama. Didn't seem to help then and I can't imagine why the heck he would even want me now.. But, HE has continued to try.. although, he keeps saying that he is 100% done with us and off he goes to live his new life. This past week I just went over the edge and told him to leave me alone. I can't take the flip-flopping any longer - even if the only thing he seems to be confused about is who he wants to have sex with that day!
I think the biggest mistake is that he didn't move out. By him constantly throwing the A and his happy new life in my face, I have become .. well.. for the moment.. I guess you could call it bitter... I am tired of walking on eggshells. I am tired of living with secrets and lies. I am tired of having to be "friends" with someone who treats me worse than an enemy.. Just tired of it all.. ya' know?!
D4 and I had a great weekend together.. sooo much fun! I almost didn't miss H (missed being a family, though). Sometimes, I feel like I'm getting over H but not having to spend less time w/my D.
