I think you need to go back over what happened and look at all the positives. Write them down if you have to and read them when you feel down.
You're only human Stella and you're allowed to slip up. Maybe you shouldn't haven gotten drunk but it's too late now. You need to look past the mistake and move on. I think deep down you wanted to get all this hurt and anger out. You've bottled it all up inside for too long. The suggestion that you see a C is a great one and it'll help you get the anger out in a healthy manner.
Remember what they say here about the OW? The sp who had the appair will go through a type of withdrawal because the OP was like an addiction. Also your H is still in MLC so take a look at the stages and how to help him through this.
(((Stella)))
Jen
Jen *The more anger towards the past you carry in your heart, the less capable you are of loving in the present*
