Start of the long and bumpy road........

[TwinDad]

Yesterday was a very good day. We spent the whole day together and had friends and family over to her house for a BBQ. She often referred to the house as our house.....though the idea of it not being "our" house made me a bit sad.

She said a few things that peeked my interest but I played it very cool (either not saying anything at all or validating her)

She talked about us all moving away to a better part of the country to our friends and family

She later said that she was depressed about the house she was in, not being able to see the kids all of the time, and about us being separated.....she said the whole thing just sucks! I agreed with her and told her it was difficult for me to be heading home afterwork and realizing that I would not be going home to my kids. I pretty much left the R talk at that....though I took it as a good sign.

She also talked about us getting one of the houses that we looked at together before she got this one on her own. She asked what we would do with this one. All I said was we could either rent it or sell it.

That night she asked for a massage (I used to rub her back pretty much every night and give her a very good massage once a week). I said ok....and I actually massaged her into a sleep for a little bit.

When I was done she asked me if I was staying there or going back to my place. I asked if she wanted me to stay there and she made no response, so I stayed :-)

Note to self: act as if and act with confidence

Anyways, it was nice to spend the night with my W for the first time since S. The nice part is that she didn't hug the edge of her side of the bed and actually made contact with me a lot through the night :-)

Hopefully the pendulum doesn't swing the other way today. She goes back to work and I have noticed that the stress of her job usually manifests itself in our relationship.