Thanks so much for those words of advice.Really I have no choice but to try to get on with my life and wait. The problem could come in July when I finish work. My solicitor says he will have to give me a large share of the house sale,maintenence for 9 months until I am 60,and half of his pension. He will NOT like this but my teachers pension is not enough to live on.I have a few months grace though and will do nothing except pray that he comes out of this fog and denial of what is happening-things are great between us as long as I dont mention the marriage!This is so frustrating as I want to talk and talk!Have been keeping a journal and that helps me a lot-but sometimes I feel so sad and frightened-I thought we would spend our old age together and he would settle down and open up more. Well,what will be will be.
