lost- I will read your sitch....If it is in this forum I will keep checking on it. I'm horrible about checking other forums...no time.....
Mark- Thanks for your encouragement. I am really trying, and right now I have good moments and bad moments. It can only get better.
Today was an ok day.....and it should have been more than ok. H and I took S to a parade in town (S had behavior problems which tainted that time), then went trying to find something at 5 different stores and came back home with nothing. Barely any conversation with H during this whole time. Why can't we talk? Why don't I want to touch him? I just need to do it myself even though I don't feel it. It sounds so easy to do, but I can't get myself to do much of it. I have to realllly force myself. I just don't have the desire. But, like Sara said, it is my choice.
Last night, parents came over. I had a lot of fun, and so did H but he barely talked...... in fact many of the little things he did was ticking me off. Why is that?
