Real life...part 3

[Starshyne]

Thanks for the advice...this has been a difficult road to travel. I haven't been having panic attacks a whole lot. I mean I have them now and then anyway...but they haven't gotten any worse than normal. I was seeing a therapist, but my insurance only allowed 6 visits a year, so I ran out of visits really quick going once a week. She did give me some breathing techniques, and I totally forgot about that until I read what you wrote. I am doing better today.

H finally contacted me. He only talked for a few minutues. Very matter of fact type conversation. He wanted me to know that he was sleeping at the house tonight and will be home around 10-11. So that means that I need to pack up again and go to my parents for the night. I have been in the house for 3 days, so now it is his turn. I know that someone is going to tell me how wrong that is, and I agree. You all have no idea how hard I have tried to get him out of the house. The police couldn't get him to leave and they were begging him to.

So I go out of my way to make sure things here aren't very nice for him. I have locked up all of the good, comfy blankets and pillows. He is stuck with scratchy blankets and throw pillows on the hard couch. I take the food that I want with me so that he has no access to the food or drink. I have taken the TV out of the house and put it in the garage. Stuff like that to show him that as long as he is continuing with the OW, he is not welcomed here.

The parade today was nice. I am glad that I went and did something like that today. I am having a game day tomorrow with my students and I am looking forward to that because I know how much they love games. And these games are educational...at least I am not doing what 1/2 of the school seems to be doing...showing movies.

Sara