one of the most interesting things for me that I have been reflecting on since finding out he found the boards is this. I've never been very good at letting my needs be known...a lot of them I just keep to myself. definitely something I'm working on. but what has been nice to realize is that when h did read about needs I had (like last month when talked about how I didn't feel appreciated) he immediately responded to that need. That says something to me.
its been weird knowing he has read some really personal stuff...really personal. I haven't held back much here, and definitely my cards have been laid out on the table pretty clearly for him. At the same time, because of his reading it, we have had some really good conversations this weekend...its opened the door a lot.
from what he's told me, it wasn't just what I was writing that influenced him, btw. A lot of it was also people's responses to me too. Same as I see things in a different way a lot of times when I read posts (to me or to others). that's what I like so much about message boards like this, I suppose...getting that different viewpoint.
we had a nice day out with the kids...took them to the beach and flew kites and played a bit then went out for seafood. a nice time. I'm still afraid of rushing things...patience is not my strong suit, and I'm working on that. but its starting to feel really right to me. scary, that. but nice, too. we'll see what the future brings. we have some definite steps left to take before I am comfortable in saying that we are piecing....but I feel like we are headed that way.
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"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says, 'I'll try again tomorrow.'"
