The divorce is scheduled for Wed--only 2 days to go. I just can't shake this feeling of....defeat, of deep sadness. People keep telling me that the closure will make me feel better. I don't think so, not at all.
My sponsor is going to come to court with me, as well as my pastor.
I still wish there was something that I could do to stop this, but accept that there isn't. I have to put it in God's hands. But even that doesn't make the hurt any less.
Donna...Found,
I wish there was something profound I could write to help you. It is such a very tough place to be. I found prayer to be very helpful. I also found striving for acceptance while just putting one foot in front of the other helpful.
In my case, I drove past the courthouse every day on the way home from work. That made it extra tough knowing my D was one day closer.
Finally, I pray you eventually no longer see the D as a defeat. It was something where your H made a choice. It was not some kind of competition or battle. It was all about him, not you....
Take Care,
NMD
"Chains do not hold a marriage together. It is threads, hundreds of tiny threads which sew people together through the years. That is what makes a marriage last --more than passion or even sex!" - Simone Signoret
