Kids and I had a good weekend--the weather couldn't have been more beautiful--but there are always those thoughts, like static on the radio.
Just got home and we are wiped. We did do the kayaking, and it was great. Visited with another friend, ate really well, slept in and then off to an ecology site with animals today before another visit and then home. Indulged in some things that are not found around here--italian ices in 100 flavors, zeppolies, real NY pizza & bagels.
I am backlogged in grad hw to a scary extent. I have to buckle down and get some major work done.
The divorce is scheduled for Wed--only 2 days to go. I just can't shake this feeling of....defeat, of deep sadness. People keep telling me that the closure will make me feel better. I don't think so, not at all.
My sponsor is going to come to court with me, as well as my pastor.
I still wish there was something that I could do to stop this, but accept that there isn't. I have to put it in God's hands. But even that doesn't make the hurt any less.
