I've been following along. I'm struggling with a lot of the same feelings and issues. I always seem to backslide at least once in our conversations. I do try to put on my happy face and I think it surprised my W when I was helping her move. I think that surprised her. I bought her some bathroom stuff before she left and she was very surprised. But I struggle too, like you. Even now, I want to text her or call her but I now that's against DB.
I'm not the best one for giving advice right now but I see you are struggling with what to do. If your visit is going to be short and you think you might say the wrong things then it might be best to cancel the visit. If you know deep down that you feeling will come out then it probably not worth. I'm sorry you are struggling so much but there are others in the same sich so take some comfort in that. I struggle hour to hour.
M 35 W 28 D 4
Bomb 4/28/08 Found out about PA 05/14/08 Separated 5/25/08 (not legally)
