You guys are all soooooo awesome!!! I am so lucky!!!
Who's ready to listen to some BRAIN SPEW?????
Ok, I still haven't heard from him. WHY hasn't he emailed meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee???? Yesterday I think I checked my email probably 27 times. (BIG SIGH OUT LOUD). AT the end of today it will be a week since my email. If he doesn't email me after 9 days (wednesday, remember how I joked about us each adding 2 days to the response time?) I will be officially confused. I mean I told him 'early june', I didn't tell him I was going to be there for 3 weeks, for all he knows I could only be in town the first weekend of June or something. But I have to remind myself, the reason *I* didn't email him back was b/c I was so scared of doing the wrong thing. Maybe that is what he is doing, or tit-for-tat, or WTF knows. (WHIMPER WHIMPER)
Right now I am thinking just a text message for his birthday. Maybe even nothing at all? If he isn't answering my emails I think a card could be very pursuing. I might look for a card tomorrow anyway though to give to him in person if we meet, if I decide to give him the gift??? I forgot my collection of funny cards and postcards in Atlanta including the birthday card I already selected in DECEMBER (jeez, NOT using my months of preparation to my advantage), I'm not sure I'll be able to find something quirky and clever here in virginia... is there a special store somewhere? Cards for DBing, INC? Categories like: Show You Care, But Not Too Much? Clever, But Not Pursuing? We could all go there. Maybe OD could be the Mistress of the Inventory!!!!!!
One thing I have learned is that I will NEVER take that long to respond to his emails again. Probably he was wondering the same stuff I am wondering now when I took a week to respond to him. Even if I can't think of exactly what to say I can always just send him a link to something silly to keep the tennis ball going back and forth over the net...
I dunno guys. I am feeling very low motivation right now as I get closer to the possibility of me meeting with him. Is it just me avoiding the source of Stress, now that it is getting closer??
I also felt really discouraged yesterday. Like... even if he wanted to come back, how the &%$# is this going to work? Please don't tell me to give up, guys. I need encouragement. The Voice told me again, "Be Patient." I reminded myself that we don't have to know how to get the things we want for them to arrive in our lives....
Otherwise, brother24 and my Mom are rocking my world right now. I can't believe how much better things are now than they used to be. They are being so sweet to me and we are really connecting. It might be time for me to start DB'ing my Dad too!
