18th Anniversary

[limbo]

Well today is my 18th wedding anniversary, and to be honest I never thought that I would make it here!
It has been a hard couple of years, and many times I thought that I wouldn't make it to the next anniversary!
I can't say what the future will hold! If only we could!!!

There are still days I struggle, still days I want to say its all over, but there are becoming less, the memories come less frequently, and that is good.
The drive to snoop has lessened, although there are still times, I do, and for the most part there is nothing, however recently I have discovered my H has signed up for another email account, although I don't know why, and to be honest don't know how to handle it!
But for the most part we are ok, h tells me he loves me and wants to be with only me, and I believe him, because for him to say and behave how he is, and then seek someone else out would be to twisted for words, and I don't believe that he can be that twisted!
So we are moving on, and settling in to a new marriage, and aside from a couple of issue's its good.
So to all who are in peicing or still struggling there can be hope, and the pain and the work can be worth it.
It is also worth it even if it doesn't work, because we are changing who we are, and we are changing for the better!