Thanks hopeful; I was definitely not thinking clearly when I kept going with the communications. The good news is, I've started reading DR and it is encouraging. I also have a coaching session on Tuesday and I'm hoping that it will produce some strategies I may have overlooked. I have a feeling I may need to go completely dark on my H for a while since I'm not leaving very much to the imagination. It's hard to feel like I keep blowing all of my "chances" but I guess its probably more severe in my mind than the impact it truly had. I've at least stayed "quiet" about the non-responsiveness; normally I would've kept on trying until I got a response with messages that eluded to my previous attempts like "well, I haven't heard back from you...". Perhaps if I at least am not doing that I will have recovered somewhat. I'm just leaving it alone.
