debbie, you can only make the best decision that you can make with what you know right now. It didn't work, and it sounds like you have added that attempt to your in-head database of what works/what doesn't, so if nothing else you've learned from the experience, that sounds like a positive to me.
I keep feeling lately like my H wants to see me, but can't quite get over whatever stumbling block is in his way to, so Friday afternoon I emailed him and simply said "crazy idea, but I thought you might be free for dinner?" of course the longer it got with no answer from him, the crazier I got, I did see him the next day for a pre-planned meeting with our real estate agent(we're selling a house that we own, but don't live in), I saw him again today because we had to get some tools out of the house and mow the lawn, but still not a word about the dinner invite. On the one hand it makes me want to shrivel up and blow away and then on the other I remember all of the really great wisdom that I've gotten lately from introducing DB'ing and this forum into my life and I think about how great I am as a person and all the great things going on in my life, not really at the point yet where that makes me feel 100% better, but most of the way there.
Just think of all the time you have between now and June 2nd, you have had that many more days of loving yourself and being good to you because you deserve it, and then you'll get to visit your dogs(woof, woof, pant, pant, lick, drool, I think they're happy to see you).
