He treated me like a princess, I swear. He thought I was beautiful and he wrote notes for me every morning, cooked dinner every night, he brought me flowers and gifts and he made me things and he called when he was traveling and wrote me and he was a good husband for so long. He also made me laugh and I made him laugh. I do miss him and all that we shared together. But I know that I would never have become who I am now if all of this had not happened I like myself so much better than I did when I was in the marriage.
I wonder if I will ever find anyone who meets my standards. Mitch had so many great qualities. Sure, he was an arrogant snob, but he loved me and no one I've met or dated has even come close. They must be out there though, right...?
You know, I've thought about this question a lot - how does a spouse who is overly demonstrative of their love suddenly turn it off? My h described it as "the well running dry". I think my take on it is this: the more "romantic" the H, the more needy they are of attention and the dopamine high of romance. Therefore, the more vulnerable they are to an affair when life settles into a routine, or the W is preoccupied with the kids, or in my case and yours, when thyroid disease and the fatigue that goes with it makes you somewhat less than the sparkling partner they married.
"Romantics" don't seem to have the staying power when things get rough because they are too dependent on that dopamine high.
Perhaps your next guy should be less of a romantic (and less of a snob!) and more of a solid rock.
Sounds like you are doing great with your art! Don't fret about those last CEUs, just crank them out and be done with it. I know some part of you is resisting it because finishing means going back to work as an RT, but remember, you don't HAVE to take that job. Finishing up your credential just means you have the OPTION, and options are good, right?
