My insecurity about being liked is a deep seated one and pre-dates my M. I had hearing problems as a very young child and I think that might be when it started. Add in to that an epileptic adolescence and it's not hard for anyone to see how I got myself into this way of feeling about myself.
I have to remind myself that I have made great strides in this though.
Six months after H left me I went on a weekend break with a bunch of people I'd never met in my life only to find out when I got there that it was a singles weekend! I survived and actually had a really great time despite making it VERY obvious that I wasn't there for the dating.
Ten months after I joined the activity club that I still belong to and I have met some lovely people and made one or two close friends.
In fact two of those people have been here this afternoon. One is probably my closest friend right now and I invited her to join me and children (including S15) for lunch. Then another woman who as it turns out lives just round the corner from me joined us for coffee later. We've had a really pleasant afternoon.
So I can make friends. My problem in the past has always been keeping them but thanks to DB and a few other motivational books I think I am learning how to do that too.
Today is a much better day.
Me 43 XH 45 M 2.7.88 Divorce 7.10.09 Kids D20,S17 & D15
