Thank you for that, yes it does offer some comfort to me! It's just so hard as close as we once were. I just hope that he doesn't hold hard feelings against me with all the legal stuff that happened. He threatened criminal charges against me b/c he left his laptop computer here & I figured out his password & got into his work emails. He tried to hang that over my head throughout the whole process but apparently his lawyer said that nothing would come of that b/c he didn't get what he wanted. My L told me not to worry about it b/c the computer was in my house & he left it.
My SIL told me that he had told them early on, last fall, that he might have to pay me alimony but he would send my checks to jail b/c he was going to put me there. (He talks big around them) I got into the emails & that is how I found out about OW, I really can't believe he didn't get in trouble at work b/c some of those emails were very damaging. Sexy talk!! He may have gotten in trouble but didn't tell me. I doubt they would have fired him b/c he was a good employee.
He knows that I found out a lot of stuff, but it's like my lawyer told me, he was my H & I had every right to go thru his things. I just had to know & all he was telling me was he didn't love me anymore & he had to find himself again. I knew him well enough to know better. I asked him over & over if there was someone else, he kept telling me No, & he was tired of me accusing him, the whole time he was telling me this I knew the truth but my L told me not to let him know I knew. That was hard for him to be in the same house with me (H in guest room) & me keep quite when he was telling me all his reasons for the D making me look like I was the bad one.
I like your saying, I truely believe I will love him forever even as mean as he has been to me. I know it's the MLC talking & I also know that he was trying to justify his A & the feelings of guilt. I sure hope he is still feeling that guilt & reality will set in soon.
Thank you again, (((HOPE))) That does give me comfort!!!!
