The decision is made

[Smurf_SMR]

Glad you are feeling better today, sorry you have these ups and downs, we all do.

I need to stop analyisng every last second of my life.

and when you do it is like a new dawn breaking, honestly it will come.

I am me and I have to accept that.

Yes a wonderful you. This may sound conceited, but I adopted a "je suis un dieu" attitude, and it really does work.

I also have to accept that if others don't like me/want me that's their problem not mine.

Exactly, and it will happen, whether it is with your spouse, offspring, and any other. I am no oil painting, but life is great at the moment, and it does become worthwhile living again.

I have 4 different rendezvous this week, and now a double booking, blast I shall have to dish out cloakroom tickets to keep track.

Ali, I mourn for my marriage every day, there is a moment that goes by that I think "what if...". But life is for living...a big wide world out there...everything is possible. This last week, I went to one of our factories in France, I had an office...you look out the window...and there is the eiffel tower.

I go to work, everyday I pass the Jet d'eau, I think "Craig Sterling, one of the champions..." ...Yes I am, and you are Sharon Macready.

You should hear my other fantasies...well perhaps not!