I kept my word and did not call the wife today, but I thought about her a million times.
Her cousin got married today to a girl he has been dating for 8 years or so. I pictured my wife all dressed up with her hair all nice and pretty, etc, dancing and having fun with her family. It was mental torture....I should be there with her, and her with me...the two of us dancing and having fun together like we used to.
The past few days have been very tough for me. I've been missing her terribly almost constantly. I tear up when I think about how much I'd give just to feel her in my arms again.
I love this girl so much.....and to have things turn out like this just doesn't seem right....
It is taking everything I have to back off and stay away from her for now....to give her the time and space she keeps saying she wants. I am starting to suspect there is someone else...and it is absolutely tearing my heart out.
