How am I NOT taking a stand with him? As long as he is with the OW, I out right refuse to be in the same house as him. If he comes in, I leave and sleep at my parents, because I refuse to be around him while he is having an affair. I haven't seen him in person since Tuesday when all of this happened. I have talked to a lawyer and have all what is needed on "stand-by." I just need to pay her the money to make it happen.

I am not answering all of his phone calls. I am making things as difficult for him as I legally can, and I am moving forward with my life.

I know that he is morally weak, but I also know that he is an ordained minister and knows better. If he would just get back on track with God, things would so totally be different.

I don't know if I fall for what he says 100%. I do believe that he still loves me. And I think the things he is saying is truly his heart. However, I am also trying my best to use my brain and not my heart and see that I am not seeing any actions with his words. I do agree though that the things he says messes with my brain and makes me have 2nd thoughts about going through with the divorce.

Me-31 H-38
M: 5 yrs T: 7 yrs
No kids
Went to Prostitutes 10-1-06
Found out about OW 12-24-07
Bomb on EA/PA: 1-2-08
OW ended it with H "for good" 3-8-08
OW is back 4-19-08
H and OW tell me that they are in love 5-19-08
Filed for divorce 6-5-08
Divorced 7-2-08