Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
Yes it is, I am trying to make sure I do a lot of it. Some days it is easier than others. In general, it was a lot easier before all this crap happened. But I try and remind myself to laugh at one thing a day - usually it's myself - but it's a start!
Michelle - Proud DR Rockette S: 28JUL07, D'd: 29OCT09 http://tinyurl.com/27j9qo2
I know the feeling. Although today has been a good day, and I am so excited about my new granddaughter, there are moments when it catches me off guard. Especially at night, when it is quiet, D12 is in bed, I miss him.
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
I am loving that I have time to relax this weekend. I really need some time to catch up on chores and relax a bit.
Unfortunately...that also means I have way too much time to think.
And H's away message says "getting the hell out of town" - and all I can think is that I just want to go with him. Doesn't even matter where.
So I'm watching The Last Boy Scout...waiting for Under Seige to come on...doing laundry...and sitting here by myself as my roommate is at her second job right now.
I am tired of being lonely. I am tired of turning down dates and pointing out that I am married. (of course, about 99% of those would have been a "no" anyways...but there's been a couple that actually seemed like decent enough guys) I'm sick of being my H's second or third choice. I'm sick of being lonely. I'm sick of walking on eggshells every time I see or talk to H.
And while seeing my MIL is always fun as she is a wonderful person, it also always dredges up a lot of memories of happier times and the family I can't have at the moment.
Michelle - Proud DR Rockette S: 28JUL07, D'd: 29OCT09 http://tinyurl.com/27j9qo2
((((((((Michelle)))))))) HUGE HUG!! This has to be the roughest thing to experience, but I wonder if it is harder when you have no words of wisdom. The best thing I can say is leave it up to a higher power...God...Allah...Jehovah...Zeus whatever you believe. It takes the pressure off and makes it easier. I also think that you have to believe because if you don't believe in something, you feel very alone. Of course, a good shot of tequila always helps too!
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
Sounds like fun!
Laughing is music for the soul (((Michelle)))
and vodka....