The thing is that I have done things tonight, but at 830pm, I am in for the evening! LOL! I have done a lot of GAL things today, but it is now time to settle in for me.

My Dad says that H is "playing me." That he knows just the right words to say to get to me. In a way, I can see that, but I don't believe it totally. I think the things H is saying to me is really how he is feeling. I don't think he is saying them because he wants to hurt me more than I am already hurt. But he is really, really messed up in the head and his actions aren't matching his words. He even said so. He said he knows what the right thing to do is, but he feels like he is so out of control with his lies and things that he has dug himself into a hole that he can't get out. He even said that he feels "trapped" with the OW. I said "I thought you were trapped in our marriage." And he said, "Oh no! I was wrong! I am so more trapped with her than I ever could have felt in our marriage."

I wish I just didn't miss him so much. Today especially has been difficult.

Sara

Me-31 H-38
M: 5 yrs T: 7 yrs
No kids
Went to Prostitutes 10-1-06
Found out about OW 12-24-07
Bomb on EA/PA: 1-2-08
OW ended it with H "for good" 3-8-08
OW is back 4-19-08
H and OW tell me that they are in love 5-19-08
Filed for divorce 6-5-08
Divorced 7-2-08