For the first time in a VERY long time I suddenly just burst out crying. I don't even know why. I just want this to be all over one way or the other. I'm tired of feeling trapped in a life I don't want. I'm tired of having to be the 'responsible' one 24/7 365 days of the year. I want to be able to apply for jobs b/c they are the best job for me and not just b/c they happen to be in the area I live in. I don't want to be second guessing what's going to happen tomorrow,next week, month or year. I just want to feel like someone loves me.
Ok pity party over (although the tears are still there).
