I feel for you my dear. I too have felt the night time blues since my H left me last summer. Your spouse sounds so much like mine. You definately should keep those hopes alive for reconciling because your spouse is showing the signs of regret, mine did the same thing even when he was giving me no verbal confirmations of this. I'm new to this website and I found out that so many of us go through hauntingly identical situations it's almost like there's a script for our spouses when they leave! I'm glad you are here. If you can afford it, try to get a DB coach, it seems that they really help people. I'm anxious to hear what mine says when I finally get a consult. When you are in pain, its so hard to see what in the world you could possibly do to change it. The nights will become easier when you feel that you have hope and a PLAN for how to deal with your situation. I am pulling for you. Try not to show too much of your pain right now to the H, he may see it as a "guilt trip" even if you didn't mean it that way. Hang in there and remember, a lot of us are up at night the same time you are. We're here for you.
