"Having a thing is not the same as wanting a thing," (?)
I have added this to my profile as it seems to describe my x-W's sitch very well. She now hs her D and should be happy and relieved, right?.....NOT!
She is constantly "exhausted" (her words). This AM she called first thing (we should move in together if for no other reason than to save minutes on our cell plans she calls so much) and told me she didn't sleep last night and lay awake in be til 1:00 AM (I kept kids last night for her so she could get some rest). I told her there are meds for that.
She then asked me to run a couple of errands for her, one was to get 3 beachtowels for her and the kids. I'm tempted to not get the towels and explain "If you had asked that I get 4 I would have done it."
I had a dream a couple of months after we separated in which W and OM were on the opposite side of a river from me and an unknown female (I'm tempted to look for that female sometimes as I haven't one with me in reality). In the dream I had to go up an elevator to an upper level of the bridge to get across to where W was (the "High Road"?). I did so and arrived on the other side.
Although not easy I have found that taking the "High Road" is the right move in all of this. I have been very tempted to not and would no doubt recieve momentary satisfaction, but would not accomplish movement toward my goal in the long run. By doing so I am true to myself and my children (and x-W). I am free of later regret for my actions. I am chosing who I will be and my own destiny.
What is that saying?
Our thoughts become our actions. Our actions become our character. Our character becomes our destiny.
Got destiny?
"Fear is the mind-killer" Muad'Dib Me 53, XW 44, DD 14, DS 12 Bomb and OM 12/15/06 Separated 01/02/07 Divorced 05/13/08 X married OM(OMH) 08/2009 Married 06/09/13