H is Having Affair after all - Part 2

[Evie]

went to the gym for a work out and a swim this morning. Saw my good friend in the lanes swimming, so swam with her for bit then stood chatting for ages. Guess who was one lane away teaching - OW....OMG i can't go anywhere... I tried not to look at her at all and when i finsihed my swim i went into the sauna and when she finished her lessons she came into the sauna, i don't think she knew i was there, don't suppose it would have made any difference to her if she knew.

I didn't stay in there for long when she walked in.

I tried to think how i feel towards her. I guess it would help if i knew if they were on or off. I don't feel intimidated by her, ok she is the complete opposite of me, she is tall, annorexic thin and blonde, but I don't feel anything, just numb - is that normal? shouldn't i want to hit her or something or at least feel like saying something?.

2 people this week have asked me if H knew i wanted him back and if does he want to come back. I said yes he does know and no he doesn't want to come back. The one person said their reaction to you finding out about the affair is important. Well his reaction was 'i told you i didn't love you'.