My house and the "tanked" housing values I haven't mentioned it before but my choice to work from home and use my resources to be around my kids all the time, combined with the horrible drop in property values will likely result in me losing my house. I have realized this over the last 6 months or so and the reality of the losing of the home is here, facing me now.
I couldn't anticipate losing around $125,000 in equity so rapidly, money that would be in my pocket if I had sold when X moved out. Instead, not knowing she already made plans to marry Mr. X, I refinanced, paid her her share, kept the house (letting step son live with me for virtually nothing rather than renting out his room) thinking we might reconcile. Had I known about her plans with Mr. X, I might have sold then when the market was at it's peak.
Now, anyone who reads about this aspect of my sacrifice just to be around my kids will really know how ridiculous her assertions of my being a "bad dad" really are. NEVER once did I say one thing to her about how her deception affected my financial decisions concerning the refinance of the house.
Resentment, bitteness? One would think I have every right to righteous indignation and bitterness towards her and Mr. X because of this pending loss of my home. I refuse to go down that path. All I need is some sort of roof over my head and to know that I am serving God for I am truly rich in Him and by following the steps He shows me.
Good "imaginary" friends that you all are, I know you'll share your empathy and maybe even sympathy from those who have gone through this. Thank you in advance but also know this, I have never been so assured that I am walking in the center of God's will for my life so I am at peace with whatever happens.
Even in this, I assert this will work out in a way that God receives glory. How? I don't know but you can bet I will post about it when it comes to fruition.
I STILL love my life and still feel like George Bailey!
Committed2Him- "C2H" All Things (Back from Spain!)...18
