After re-reading my post I guess I can see why you wrote what you wrote, using pronouns when talking about different people can be confusing. The "he" that I couldn't stop thinkng about having dinner with was my husband, the one I emailed(lousy since I'm trying to be dark or at least gray) was my husband. The one I never got a reply from, despite the fact that I emailed him two hours before he left work and got no response was my husband. What I apparently did a lousy job of saying was that I had all of these thoughts about a friend of mine and I know that it's just really missing my husband that makes me feel that way. I decided almost before my husband actually moved out that I don't want somebody else, I made a promise and even if he can't quite seem to remember what it is he promised, I will still keep my promise, despite the fact that I have an empty house and an empty bed and a very lonely heart, I'm not only not planning to "stray", but I am not "going" to stray.
Originally Posted By: legna
Not the right thing to do if I have any desire to save my M, of course the only thing I can think about is that I want to see H, get him to go out for dinner with me, have a good time, be friends, I think that would quench my silly "wants" as far as the man across the street goes.
I was certainly NOT validating anyone's affairs, maybe being a little too much revealing with my thoughts, but I guess I thought this would be a safe place to talk about feeling confused and lonely and wanting things to be different and going through what is certainly the hardest thing I've ever had to go through.
I'm sorry if what I wrote was offensive to anyone.
