The thing is so bad that I feel I should stop trying to save the not savable.
Sadly, it's your "trying to save it" that's going to kill it. By fighting with her you just push her away. She can't come back even if she did change her mind, and your sadness and unhappiness only makes you unattractive to her.
My guess is she's talking so much about OM to you because it does make you angry and makes you both fight... and that makes it much easier for her to leave.
There is no arriving, ever. It is all a continual becoming.
