I got a copy of what took place at court (the real deal). It seems to me that his lawyers have relieved themselves from the case and he has been given 30 days to find new representation, if he wants.
So, I see him during a "kid swap" and he pulls me to the side and kisses me. Oy vey. So I say, "Why dont you love me anymore? I really could not think of anything else but I was thinking WTH. So, this is where the story takes an unexpected turn...
He started to turn away and then he turned back around, stopped in his movement and looked at me intently and said "I do love you." for the first time in four years. I was stunned as I did not expect to hear it, at all. I really expected to hear nothing or see the MLC fog face.
I am not saying that it will change anything necessarily and i know that it is a long road back from MLC fog but I am sure that it took a lot of courage for him to say this.
We still live separate lives and I am not expecting any changes as all of those steps will be up to him. Funny, my life is no longer contingent upon how he feels about me. A short time ago, I would have jumped all over this and been all happy and ready to play house again. But this, did not change anything. I just savored the moment and enjoyed it.
I did not change how I deal with him since then. I have no expectations. I have not increased my calls or contacts. I am just going about my business and guessing that he is too. If he decides that he wants his family and I decide that it could work for me, I might consider it. But this is jumping ahead and I dont' feel the need to do so right now.Life is funny that way.
MLC, ain't it a B****H ? Tune in to next week's episode of "Let's See What Happens"
