running - I wish I could pull out something like that - the truth is I am still too attached, I am in pain, and I cannot hide it all the time. We fight - a lot - we just fought at the phone - the reason is because OM - I cannot stand it, it comes out in every discussion, today was "he is helping me a lot in this hard moment" - it was like a dagger in the guts. How can a mother with 2 small kids do something like that? Destroy a family. I am in love with the wrong person, and I can't help it. I shouldn't be in love, she doesn't deserve it. The irony is that she thinks she is very good to me - she tells me that EVERY TIME - "I am so good to you... bla bla bla - I aways help you...". I asked her: "help me with what"? I don't know what she thinks.... the only thing I know is that she has a relation with somebody else, and that is wrong - she doesn't see why, she said: I am divorcing you, I am done with you, I want somebody else.... nothing wrong with that". She is set - set -set. The thing is so bad that I feel I should stop trying to save the not savable...., so many months are gone and I don't feel an inch better. My parents keep saying that I am only hearting myself - I should forget about her - and they are probably right - I wish there was a pill I could take and she could become like a stranger to me. Time is not helping - Sorry for my complaining - I am venting like crazy -
