Jack, I have ordered the DB book and expect it to arrive any day. I hope that it might come so I will have it for the long weekend. I have read the D Remedy, and love it. It is what lead me to this site.
Twin, I enjoyed my GAL night, and found peace in holding my new grandson. You were right, he did miss me. When I came home I found that he had stopped our local pub on his way home, had a few drinks and brought us both home dinners. Unfortunately, I was not at home when he got there, and because I had not called to let him know where I was and what I was doing (like I usually would) he was ANGRY. He was very verbally abusive (again threatening D) this morning, but I did not respond at all.
I do feel bad now though that I had not called to let him know I was going out. I feel like I missed a chance for an “up” on the rollercoaster and a possible “good” holiday weekend. I’m pretty sure now that I will be home alone this evening while he is at the pub getting drunk and having a grand old time with all of our friends.
I hate doubting and second guessing myself. I hate that all the rules for our R are out the window. I hate that he is at the bar every night. I really hate wondering when the next verbal explosion is going to happen, and why.
Most of us are about as happy as we make up our minds to be.
