Yep. I may be insecure but even worse than the pain it causes me, is the fact that it's just embarrasing and unattractive. I know it. I'm trying to be secure. I think. I just know that it's hard enough for me to admit it to myself, but when HE notices it? Oh man.
Luckily he's not as perceptive as you. LOL. Or scared of me.
If I feel hurt one of 2 things usually happens, either I lash out in anger eg. "Hmmm. I wonder, H, how I could ever feel insecure?" --- Can we say guilt trip?
Yeah, I know it's my responsibilty to fix my issues, but he hasn't picked up a relationship book in...um...forever, so HE doesn't know that. Told ya I'm a spoiled brat. The bottom line is I eventually end up crying/pouting. Since I hardly ever cry anymore, it has major impact and he feels horrible.
The second outcome? I take a breath and tell him that I was struck by lightening last night, a miracle has happened and I'm now secure enough to tell him that he may as well just skip the arguing phase and get to the part where he tells me he loves me and we kiss and make up.
Hmmm. I didn't handle my neighbor very well and now have ended up with nothing.
H took the vet bill with him to discuss our dog's condition and let them know the charges, before stitches. The owner's attitude has drastically changed now. He claims he can't afford to pay for the damage his dog has done. At one point his girlfriend came over and offered to pay 50% and instead of agreeing, I told her that thier dog came over into our yard and attacked our dog and part of dog ownership is being responsible for any damage they create. I told her I understood that it was an accident that the dog got loose, but that we didn't feel as safe any more and we are the ones dealing with the damage 100% and that 50% was not acceptable. She slammed out the door and said "fine, take me to court." It's the principle of the matter for me. I feel they will have fewer accidents if it costs them. I'm emotional because my dog is in pain. The next morning the guy found 2 of his tires flat and thinks we did it. My reaction? "How stupid. I WANT your tires to be inflated so you can go to work and earn the $$ to pay what the judge is gonna order you to pay!" I don't even want to get along with people like them. However, I acknowledge that my way is getting us nothing. UGH.
