still need to be here at times

[thegoodfight]

It is not that you shouldn't give a crap! It is that your priorites and energies should be focused on your M. It is emotionally draining to act "as if" I am sure you have sleepless nights and dreams sometimes. I understand the passion thing, and how good you felt! That feeling is temporary and don't feel guilty, he knew you M. when you got into it! Keep your focus on you and your M. Things will work it is hard, I know, but you can do it!

Your Honesty should be appreciated and your H. actions seem to be focused on your needs. Read what you can in articles and books they help alot!