Although I feel like I'm on this site a lot, I surprise myself with how infrequently I post to my own thread. Doing more lurking than anything these days, I guess, just not a lot of energy to do more.
I feel like I'm in the beginning of the end phase of all of this...my family (mom, dad and sister) arrived in town tonight for S18s high school graduation this weekend. Fortunately, for a number of reasons, they are staying in a hotel nearby...less stress all around.
I hope this will be a happy weekend for S18...most of my concerns these days about my disintegrating M converge around my boys. They will be facing this on their own (without the comfort and familiarity of each other) and that really angers me. While I do believe that the 5 years since the end of our original Sep and now has, on balance, been a good thing (us being together as a family even though H has been steadfast about not wanting to work on our R), I now wish H had gone ahead and left a year ago instead of what looks like will be in July (according to exchange with OW...okay, I haven't quit all electronic snooping...)
My goal over the next month is to be as dazzlingly great as I can possibly be!! I'm going to post some pretty specific plans/ideas later this weekend to use as reference, especially while we are on our 'european vacation'....which begins a week from this morning! Yikes...lots to do to get ready...no time to feel blue. And that's a good thing!!
