Once again, locked up by Bethie... hmmm... interesting.
So things continue to go well. The girls are done with school for the summer. I'm pretty much pre-approved to refi my mortgage so I'm just waiting for the rates to hit where I want them to be.
So, yesterday was an interesting day. I had D7 for a couple hours after school before the X got her and she was very emotional and wanted to talk about the D. This is a sample of our conversation: D7- why did you have to get divorced? ME- why do you think, honey? D7- I don't know, that's why I'm asking you. Why? ME- Why do you think people get divorced? D7- I DON'T KNOW! ME- What does dad say? D7- I don't know, I don't ask him. He's too busy. ME- I wish I had a good answer for you, but I agree it's sad and it makes me sad too. Blah blah blah. Not quite ready to tell the whole truth, kwim??
So... interesting in that I've wondered if the girls talk to their dad. So then X picks her up as D5 is getting home from daycare (it's the night the kids are split for one-on-one time) and D5 is missing D7 so she actually wants to go with X. That was a first for me. So I convince her to stay and then at bedtime she asks me to put her in her bed to sleep... starting out there even. OMG, she's been in my bed for at least the last 9 months...
Initially I felt a little sad... like she was pulling away from me. Then I talked to a friend who told me to stop overanalyzing it and realize that she's just feeling secure. Which makes sense since we finally had 'the talk' last weekend and that could have helped D5 realize she doesn't have to worry about me leaving. Whatever it is, it was a milestone and definitely bitter sweet.
Played softball tonight... we kicked butt and I hit the ball like it had a pic of X's head on it.
