H is very very angry with me. I refused sex yet again. I refuse it almost daily. He wants something different than I (tension relieving non emotional sex) want, so therefore I can't. He was very angry when I left for work. Him being mad doesn't affect me too much anymore, I just worry that he will be spiteful with the kids (taking them more, etc). He is projecting his anger on me, I see this. He still blames me 100% for the marriage failure. I know this.
I am looking into a house down the street for sale. Its smaller than ours, but I could maybe afford it after I pay off H. Then I could keep the girls in the neighborhood, and have a fresh start myself. I need to go over the financials with a professional. H knows I am looking into this (helped me do it), maybe that is setting him off? He swears he isn't dating/seeing anyone. That doesn't matter to me, he still doesn't want to come back.
