If he is still in contact with that person, it is over. I will not go through that pain again.
What makes me think there's still something going on are the lies that are still happening. He called me yesterday to say that he was going car shopping after work since his car is jacked (he blew the engine). Turns out he arranged to borrow his sister's old car prior to calling me.......sooooo.......why not tell me about that, too? I think he was just coming up with a story to not be here. So where was he then? I don't know, but I'm thinking of asking. I didn't get a chance to yesterday because he jumped on me as soon as I got home from work.
Another thing, his cellphone. He doesn't bring it inside. It's hidden somewhere, either in the garage or in his car. This is exactly what he did during his A.
He's always going somewhere, and as soon as he leaves and gets into his car, he's on the phone. I've watched from the window. This was also his behavior during the A.
My sister said something to me when I was visiting her last weekend. She said it's like H feels that I "owe him" for all these years. I think she's right.
I took so much away from him - his freedom, his choices, his money, his life - and he wants me to pay now.
I really don't think I can keep at this.
Getting over a painful experience is much like crossing monkey bars. You have to let go at some point in order to move forward. ~ Joseph Campbell
