(((Feeling))) you have come to the right place. What you are going through right now is perfectly normal, although it may not seem like it. If I may suggest, get the book The Divorce Remedy. I just received my copy, and already I feel better. Post here, the people are great and we are all going through the same thing.
No one can know what is going on in your H's head right now, and I am not going to tell you this will be easy. If I did I would be lying. But when you have others in your corner who understand exactly what you are talking about, you don't feel so alone.
Lola...
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..