I had to give it up I had to because I couldn't do it alone
and that's the magic formula, we just cant CANT do it alone, the thing is you need to stop doubting God, he will pull you through this hell, no matter where you are and what you are going through, we make ourselves crazy thinking of how can we ever live happy again, or what is going to happen to us now, etc etc. God wants you to put your full trust in Him and just KNOW you will be ok no matter what.
Very well said Cat....and when we allow ourselves to trust HIM to be there by our side, and to BELIEVE that HE will do everything possible for us, THAT is when we start to learn and grow.
MrsH, I think many of us see so much potential in you as a woman, mother, friend, and person, yet, sometimes I feel that you yourself don't see it, don't feel it.
YOU are a a wonderful person, SHOW yourself to the people who matter most to you, love without being afraid, have joy without wondering about pain, just live and you will see how unimportant and trivial your H's actions are ! Truly !!!
I know he's a jerk first class, and I have been 'lucky' to have a 'nice MLC'er' but believe me, nice is also very painful, it keeps you in the HOPE corner...it makes everything good that happens, seem as if you will reconcile, and yet every time I got dissapointed and had to pick myself back up off the floor.
I have started seeing what I'm worth as a person, mother, friend, sister, daughter, person...and I like it, I like that people feel good when they see me, that I cheer them up, even though I have troubles of my own. I like that when I am down, my friends and family will be there, just as I am for them. I like that people have said to me, 'my goodness, I didn't even know about your situation, you have handled it so well and with such courage and bravery....' not because they only say nice things about me, but because now I know that I am that person, a person WORTHY of the compliments. And I feel that you are too, that you need to see that within you, because sweety, you have it in you !!
God Bless you !
Love Cinders xxx
"In the depths of my winter, I realized there is within me an invincible summer" Albert Camus